There have been dark valleys. There have been long walks in the shadow. I realize that reading the last post in my blog here. I do feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have learned a great deal about myself. I am becoming the adventurer i tell everybody that they should be.
John and i recently did the Connecticut Renaissance Festival and someone asked us how we are able to do it, how do we keep so happy and energetic all day. His response was brilliant. He pointed to a child of about 7 or 8 years old who was all smiles and running by and he said, "Because we never forgot how to do that." So true. The embrace of one's inner child is so fundamentally important, especially when you are working in interactive theater and want to bring that joy to the people you see who desperately need it.
My Godfather Bill Cash knew that. He passed away to the next adventure this week and i spoke about him at his funeral. My earliest memory of my Uncle Bill, as i called him, was when he took me to a Phillies game when i was probably about 8, back when i had an age. We had to park in Section 8, because, as he explained to me, a Section 8 is the discharge crazy people get from the military. Bill was definitely crazy in that way that is awesome. He even made parking at the baseball game fun, he made it an adventure.
I have been feeling that again. It has been a long and winding road but i am definitely embracing the inner joy. I got a pair of pants the other day that had a fuzzy lining and they are warm and feel like a cloud inside. I told my old roommates, "These pants are awesome, it is the best thing that has ever happened to me." And in that moment it was sincere, although a little crazy to think of a pair of pants as the best thing that ever happened.
But, that my friends is the childlike way of looking at things. Everything to a baby is awesome because everything is new. The sheer joy of seeing the sacred in everything, in life living itself, the whole dream of all of this. It is brilliant and i am truly honored to be a part of it. Life is good and i feel stronger for my journey through the valley of darkness. The sunlight looks all the sunnier and i am excited for what adventures may come.